It’s been four weeks since we lost our friend Matthew C. Bair, how can that be? I still have a hard time believing he’s gone, it’s not fair. I’ve known Matt and Jen since college, but I got closer to them after college and I’m so glad I had that opportunity. For those who didn’t know Matt, he was quite the unique person. He did take the time to really get to know me, which can be difficult. I’m quite introverted and I’m sure that comes off to some people as if I’m aloof or boring or have nothing to say. That is far from the truth for those that know my dark and sarcastic sense of humor, my terrible swearing problem, and my sensitive heart. Matt, Jen, and a few others have taken the time to know and love me as I am and I’m grateful for that. This is not just how these two were with me, it was everyone who came into their orbit. Matt and Jen have made sure their three girls knew every night at bedtime that they are smart, strong, and LOVED. My heart breaks for them learning how to do life without him in it. It breaks for my sweet hubby who lost his ‘dive down deep at torch lake’ buddy. It breaks for my son who is thinking about what bear tattoo to get to honor Matt. It breaks for my sweet daughter who decided to write a memoir for a school assignment about Matt, but doesn’t want me to read it because she thinks it’s not good enough. It breaks for our Torch Lake Family who are all hurting in their own way. Please know that I’m here for you all however I can be.💚 Grief sucks though.